i feel nothing today...

its hurt when u dunno whats is really goin on next in ur life...means..the thing that u already suffer about almost 4 month....i hate architecture...it make me hurt...cry...useless...but at the same time...make me gain new knowledge....make me speak out.....make me travelling...n making friends....it hurt much n a lot.......i donno wat to do....all the future is depending on it......ayah already menaruh harapan n a big hope to me....emak is alwaz make me feel it's fine...berdoa....ayah is so profesional punye org....im kind da see him like my lecturer yg buat bodo je ngan student yg macam aku ni coz thinking of submitting late.....but he is considerate father...at least he say...even rm1000 pun ayah sanggup bagi if that will make u pass this course.It make me sad....yes...money is the problem....i afraid going printing outside because it cost alot of money...i dont really have all that....takkan la out of the blu nk call my parents n masukkan duit about rm500 RIGHT NOW!!!....imposssibble...silly girl...how come aku blh lambat utk kali ni...buat pertame kali aku gune 3d for my design....how come....sad....so sad....aku kecewa dengan diri aku sendiri...


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all the lecturer buat bodo ngan 13 org yg lmbt submit 2 days before the presentation.......they consider us as FAIL!!how come...sgt tragis keputusan tu...ok....ni pandang sebelah mate pun tak....plzzzzz.....this is my future...i will try not to do that again...aku siap...juz becoz aku beratur tok print dgn sgt lame!!!!!!!!....i couldn manage to submit mine....
di saat2 genting macam ni.....aku jumpe budak x sedar diri...n sgt pentingkan diri sendiri...hate him!!!!!from the day aku realize...aku susah nk bertegur dgn die.....die pondan....dan die sgt selfish........

it's a demn cold night.......

Demn cold....aku kepenatan sbb skt dr senggugut x abes lg...aku dikata merungut dgn die...aku nk kawin...aku nk kawinnn...die kate die bosan....die kate kalo nk kawen sgt pegi cari org lain.....bkn ke kemahuan aku nk kawen ngna die satu benda yang baik....aku nk jd suri hatinye....tapi die anggap sume tu satu rungutan.....macamlah kalau aku cari yg lain ade org nk kan aku...aku tahu perkahwinan satu benda yg besar...die x ready.....baru 4 hari dr besday aku aku dilayan macam ni...tapi mcm mane pulak aku layan die....aku sedeyh sgt coz ex aku pun da bertunang...kawan2 aku pun nk kawen...jadi tu yg membuatkan aku rase ketinggalan sgt.....mayb die x faham aku....slameni pun die x penah memahami aku......die tengking aku dengan teruk...penah je aku rase...die buat aku menagis mcm org gile....penah je aku rase.....kalini...die suruh aku cari org lain....penah je aku rase....bkn aku x bg die dtg jumpe aku...tapi aku sakit...sume org xkan faham ngan sakit aku kecuali mak aku.....arini aku sakit...kne berbaring je....aku jugak yg beriye2 call die...hurmmm

Hurm....today

aku akan bertungkus lumus arini...nk siapkan design yg terbiar je...my hubby ckp aku mudah n cepat tertido skung...hmmm.aku rase betul cakap die...tapi aku penat...xtaw knp penat sangat....by da way...i'm sorry 4 everything that i have done to you dear...sory sgt2...then...aku ade bad habit....skrg ni...i keep on piciting aku punye jerawat..dang...aigoo....buat muke aku byk gle parot2..stop it..sayangi diri anda..n td aku lalu centre......skrg minggu konvokesyen....aku pass by kt tmpt family amik gmbr...shoot..aku sedey plakkk...sempat ke aku lepas dugaan sebagai student architecture...aku akak buat demi mak....submission farrah mase ari jadi mak....i will giv my complete design and d best for my presentation.....nway....aku sgtla x bersyukur...last week actually my hubby came to me n blanje makan....he try so many thing to make me happy..i know...i sorry i can't b perfect....he is a good guy la....biaselakan manusia sume x sempurna...same goes ngan cik abg aku....aku pun ape kurangnye...hmmm...sy x menyesal memilih awak sebagai teman hidup saya....should i say that...haha...patot lelaki yg ckp cm tu kan...xpela....terbalik.......susa la cam tu.xda tolak ansur....love u...hubungan kite hampir 5 tahun...... :) thats a good one.i miss u....marry me :)